Life is strange sometimes. Things get thrown at you when you least expect it. Sometimes they are good things and sometimes they are bad things.

I met up with a friend of mine from when I was in boarding school. We haven’t spoken for 8 years. It is the most amazing thing. It feels like we have been friends the whole time. I feel lost if I don’t get to speak to her during the day. I haven’t been like this with any of my female friends for a long time. She has come into my life right when I needed a friend. It feels as though we have never been a part. She is the most amazing person. She is so strong minded and knows what she wants with her life. It’s a bumpy road, but like I said she is strong and she will survive. This friend of mine is going through a really bad patch at the moment and I feel so helpless because I can do nothing to ease the pain she is going through. I know how she feels because I have been through it before and it is not easy. It hurts for a very long time. All I can say is that it is a lesson. You might not understand the lesson at that point in time, but you must learn from it. If you don’t learn from it, it will happen again and again until you do learn from it, which means you get hurt over and over. She said something very important: Hurt only lasts as long as you want it to hurt. All I can do is be there for her and hope that it helps. Like I said, she is a strong person, even if she doesn’t know it right now. She will learn what needs to be learnt at the right time. I am there to support her 100% whatever she decides and whichever path she decides to go down. That is what friends are for.

Then I look at me… I have the most wonderful person in my life. Like everyone else we have our ups and downs. If we didn’t I would be worried. I love him more than he will ever know. I sometimes wonder if he feels the way I do. It’s normal. Things are so different in this relationship. I have never had what I have now. It scares me sometimes. I have insecurities and I am trying really hard to work past them. I know I work on his nerves sometimes, but I do try very hard not to. I have not yet figured out his reason for being with me or caring for me the way he does… all I do know is that I don’t want him to go anywhere. I want him to be a part of my life for a long time to come. Everyone is quite amazed that we have lasted a year. I am just glad and overjoyed. I have never been as happy as I am right now.

To you my love… I know you will never read this, but I had to get out everything that is in my heart…

You are the most amazing person. I know I have told you this a couple times, but I really mean it and I want you to know I mean it. You have taught me so much and you still teach me so much. I could sit and listen to you and your stories for hours and over and over and never get bored. Thank you for loving me in your own special way. Whatever the reason you walked into my life, I hope you don’t plan on walking out any time soon. I love being with you and spending time with you. I love just having you around. We don’t have to be doing anything but lying in each others arms watching TV. There are so many things I want to say to you, but it just never feels like the right time. I am sure the right time will come at some point. Just know that you have wormed your way into my heart and I hope you never worm your way out.

I hope that everyone finds their true happiness in life… what ever it may be.

Lots of loves!

Toodles.